Rachel and Dao

Inbox R Saunders Jan 28, 2021, 8:32 PM (22 hours ago) to  me I think you “sleeping” on my shoulder is one of my favorite moments with you so far. Your whole body relaxed, your breathing audibly slowed, and in the silence between the sparse conversation, there was a peace and calm that was palpable. I loved it so much, Dao. There was a feeling of you letting go in order to find some small bit of restoration........ maybe born of exhaustion, but inherent in the act was trust. I think this is why I want to wake up next to you. And maybe what I really want is to lay awake next to you while you sleep and hold you. And then fall asleep next to you. Because I love the level of vulnerability and feeling of trust that are possible with you. I love the slowness and peace in watching you rest.  I love you, Dao. (You are so easy and fun to love.) I love the time we get to spend together. So much. It’s truly magical to me - the absolute improbability of all that has had to happen in each o...

  I know what you REALLY want is a kiss at 1,000 naked cardio hours, but just to keep you motivated, Naked Ferengi Oo-Mox is waiting for you at hour 500.......... https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=8ZqgU3OIerE

That you are absolutely beautiful Of course your face and your form But more importantly You Your essence Who you are Your footprint The way you touch the world The way you hold others How you are So Present I wonder where your cheek ends And your lips begin And if I asked to kiss your cheek What part is just close enough That I could brush your lips How sweet and soft that would be Overwhelming me with sensation I slip into a timelessness Where past and future muddle Into a realm of “just is”-ness All of the layers of this game disappear You allow them to drop with me You’re not afraid to meet me there And it is so safe You fit, Dao Your soul is comfortable and familiar It feels so easy to be with you I see your kindness Your drive Your gentle acceptance of where you are Where I am What’s happening right now Growth Growth is happening Because you are willing to be uncomfortable To practice To face your fears With incredible grace and compassion For yourself and others I see the s...

Just thinking of you and all the reasons I am grateful to know you and to get to spend time with you. I think there’s a little bit of magic and mystery that goes into the way things are, and I’m particularly mesmerized by that with regards to you. Thank you for being just as you are and for walking beside me just as I am. It’s so nice, Dao........ if you were here with me right now I’d lean over and give you a kiss. Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. xxoo

R Saunders Sun, Jan 17, 10:21 AM = to me Lover. Though she knew intimately how her heart danced in synchronicity with his, did he lover? She could tell when they stared into each other's souls that love... er, something timeless and cosmic anyway... wrapped them in an unspoken embrace. Words weren't really needed to describe this lover-ly feeling; it was simply experienced, and that was enough. Lover.

Compliment: Your Arm Muscles Inbox R Saunders Jan 15, 2021, 9:20 AM to me What I mean by that compliment................ Today during the 6:30a zoom call you were stroking your upper arms, and all I wanted was to be your hand so that I could touch your arm. Last night when we were hugging goodbye, I wanted to place my hands on your waist and trace them up and around your back. I don't know how to massage, but you inspire me - I want to feel the muscles that run down your back. I want to ease the tension in your shoulders. I want to gently press into and run my palms down your legs. I want you to feel good and safe and loved with touch. I want to touch your face. Kiss your cheeks and forehead. Touch your nose with the tip of my nose. I really want to kiss your lips........ and stay there for a while. A long while. I want to hold you. Maybe that's too forward or scary sounding, which I understand. And yet....... that feeling doesn't go away. You just become more familiar...