Compliment: Your Arm Muscles

Compliment: Your Arm Muscles Inbox R Saunders Jan 15, 2021, 9:20 AM to me What I mean by that compliment................ Today during the 6:30a zoom call you were stroking your upper arms, and all I wanted was to be your hand so that I could touch your arm. Last night when we were hugging goodbye, I wanted to place my hands on your waist and trace them up and around your back. I don't know how to massage, but you inspire me - I want to feel the muscles that run down your back. I want to ease the tension in your shoulders. I want to gently press into and run my palms down your legs. I want you to feel good and safe and loved with touch. I want to touch your face. Kiss your cheeks and forehead. Touch your nose with the tip of my nose. I really want to kiss your lips........ and stay there for a while. A long while. I want to hold you. Maybe that's too forward or scary sounding, which I understand. And yet....... that feeling doesn't go away. You just become more familiar and safe and beautiful and soft and inviting with every step forward. I love the time we get to spend together. Thank you for all of it. Your Arm Muscles. <3 xxoo

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