What I’m thinking when I stare into your eyes

That you are absolutely beautiful Of course your face and your form But more importantly You Your essence Who you are Your footprint The way you touch the world The way you hold others How you are So Present I wonder where your cheek ends And your lips begin And if I asked to kiss your cheek What part is just close enough That I could brush your lips How sweet and soft that would be Overwhelming me with sensation I slip into a timelessness Where past and future muddle Into a realm of “just is”-ness All of the layers of this game disappear You allow them to drop with me You’re not afraid to meet me there And it is so safe You fit, Dao Your soul is comfortable and familiar It feels so easy to be with you I see your kindness Your drive Your gentle acceptance of where you are Where I am What’s happening right now Growth Growth is happening Because you are willing to be uncomfortable To practice To face your fears With incredible grace and compassion For yourself and others I see the synergy The two branches parallel The possibility and the unpredictability Of you and me And I think at that moment you smile I smile Because some bit of the happiness is uncontained Which feels so nice It doesn’t have to be anything Or mean anything But for that moment It feels like I see you And you see me That ephemeral nature of all things in this human life How miraculous and mysterious To be doing this with you Whether yesterday today or tomorrow I’m grateful for each moment Better together and yet simultaneously alone What are the chances And still, here we are Staring into each other’s eyes

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